Ignorance

On a long journey through the layers of time
Deep within the spaces of the valleys of my mind
She’s chased me all around, from here to far there
She’s dragged me up and down the steps of despair.
She’s threatened my life, my lifestyle, my goal
She’s summoned a monster I can’t control
She speaks without thinking, without knowing what’s right
Ignorance rules her, puts her true form in light
The day shows a face that’s honest and true
Night breaks the illusion she’s works to bring through
I’m so sick of being in this never-ending strife
If I kill her in my dreams, will she die in real life?

Under Construction

Anger used to thwart me
Rage used to overcome me
Now I embrace it to make my change
I never had the motivation to do what I wanted,
To say what I wanted
To be who I wanted
Today I make a change.
Today I take a stand.
Today I fly.
No longer will I be pushed around.
No longer will I be degraded,
By others or myself.
No longer will I let the world get to me.
No longer will I be brought down
By the rulings of those around me.
No longer will others dictate my life
And what I do with it.
Say goodbye to the old Taylor.
There's a new girl in town.
You can spit your acid on my name,
But it will stand harder than before.
Love it or hate it, you’ll deal.

Monster

Another night, another dream,
Another fight against time, against life, against death
Why do you chase me
With eyes full of fire
With a mouth full of deception
You bare your fangs at my nursed skin
But when the lights turn on
You disappear, just a doll in my closet
Poppa sealed the door
Because that’s what Poppas' do
How long till it swings open again?
This world is full of monsters,
But you’re the biggest one.
This world is full of lies,
But you’re the biggest one.

The Sword is Mightier than the Pen

I feel it scratching up my throat
Trying to claw its way onto my paper
Yet when I open my mouth
When I give it the tools it desperately craves
It backs down, disperses into my veins
It sits and simmers
Boils my blood
Fries my brain
I want to run from the wordless agony
Want to jump the fence
Of my creative self-destruction
But the more emotions I swallow,
The higher I have to climb
I can’t breathe
It’s raining subjects
And I’m drowning in failure
Bestow me with a sword
Because the pen has betrayed me

Scene

Enter a stranger.
A ball of emotion
Stuck on life’s faulty elevator
Its climb a relief
But the doors only open for a taste of clean air
Never escape for an escape
Then the metal cage drops
My lungs fail, and I taste my heart
And a thousand screams sound
As the announcers of my anguish
The doors let in the putrid air
That threatens to overcome my feeble defense
Against all that I despise
Words can’t explain it
Books can’t erase it
Only the piano keeps me from suffocating
The thought of his voice has them
Pressing the button again, despite the risk
Despite knowing they might fall again
End scene.

Melting

For a brief moment
I ceased to exist
As I traveled through the dark to a time
I once knew well
The piano played on
And the waves washed over me
And all that mattered was that dark room
And the soothing voice
And the tranquility that flooded over me…
But I was jolted back in place
Against my wishes
And the peace I felt slipped away
So I flew to a meadow
Where the flowers are exquisite
And the grass is soft
And laid in the arms of my lover,
Who stroked my cheek
And played with my hair
And looked at me with those loving eyes of his.
And as the calm started to ease its way
Back through my bones,
The music stopped,
And I returned once again to these feelings
That eat through my flesh
Like death itself.

Remorse

My head is screaming
Like the wind one Autumn night
There’s too much to say
So for now, I just write
You flutter through my mind
Like a songbird in flight
But you’re running from me
And it gives me such a fright
My heart pounds roughly
When thinking of our plight
It’s the closeness that I miss
It’s got me feeling so contrite
I wish to turn to you
When loneliness strikes
So in the back of my mind
I plan to fight
A good friend you were
And now pushed aside
From my own remorse
I try to hide
But it pushed and pulled
And broke my stride
And for the first time since then
I broke down and cried
Every effort
Has been crushed, like my pride
Every apology
Has been stomped on, denied

Though what can you say
To the girl who tried
Who would have stayed
Through the hellish ride
That you broke, and crushed,
And stomped on in turn
Whose heart you ripped out
And watched it burn
How do I stand here
Trying to force my concern
Why does the past repeat?
Oh! When will I learn?